Woah! I have been uber busy, and haven’t blogged in forever.
Life… is… interesting. I have a ton of homework to do but I really don’t feel like doing it. I never feel like doing homework when I’m sad.
Tonight was the kick off to my speech and debate season, and I busted out as superior speaker, not too shabby.
This weekend I went to my bff’s homecoming with a huge group and had the best night in a long time. Somebody told me the other night I was growing up too fast, and at first I sort of took offense to it… I really have no clue why. Maybe because I haven’t been a kid in so long or because this particular person I was always afraid would look at me differently because I’m younger than they are. Either way, I’ve always acted like I’m 24 (even before knowing this person).
With that in mind I had a blast Saturday night, I acted like I was in high school. And I know that is what high school is supposed to be like all the time, but it’s not me all the time.
After tonight, despite my winning, I feel sad and calm and lonely and sick. I think maybe because with every speech/debate event that takes place I’m that much closer to being done, I really do love it. But at the same time I’ve always hung with my older teammates and now I don’t really have any friends, so I’m lonely. I work hard and I’m drained. All I wanted to do was come home and talk to somebody (specific) but they are nowhere to be found in cyber space.
There are also two people from this weekend I would really like to talk to… but I might have to give that a little time.
Until then, I will mope and let my autumn scented candle burn away the bad feelings as I TRY to finish my dreaded Macbeth study guide.
