Every Time I Hear That Song

I LOVE LOVE LOVE Outasight! This is from his newest album and it’s all pretty amazing, but when I wake up to this song it makes my entire day.

The lyrics, the beat, the laidback style. Each album has been a little bit different, but I like when artists do that.

This particular song (Never say Never) has pretty much been my mood lately, which is why I decided to share it.

I can’t really put my finger on it, but I’ve been in such a good mood lately. Everything is falling into place it seems like, and in all the right ways. Things that I’ve wanted for a long time are happening.

The only thing I could ask for is not being in high school? haha Don’t get me wrong, I’ll probably change my mind later but for now my number one goal for my few college classes im taking is that nobody find out that I’m in high school. LOL. Oh and I’ve put passing the classes on my goal list too, but that doesn’t seem as nearly as important at the moment.

Otherwise, things are good, feelin’ independent, feelin’ unusually chilled, and doing my own thing no matter what’s being said!

Tell me you love this as much as I do!

 

-- Kara <3

The Pieces Are Fitting Together Nicely

It' is 11 o’clock and I should be reading… or maybe sleeping?

But I don’t think I can.

These past two weeks I’ve been hatin’ on senior year and today, it all changed. Why? I am not sure, but I’m very, very excited about things. I’ve worked for a long time to get to the places I am, and maybe to a lot of people it’s not anywhere but I’m proud of myself. I’m in positions where I’m in charge, where I have a lot on my shoulders. Later on, I will complain about the stress but to me, it is all worth it.

During the summer, after my night shifts at the lake I would go to Liberty Point and I could see the lights from the campground and I knew that somebody in that campground was happy because of me. Now, that sounds so egotistical, right? but I’m serious. That’s sort of the feeling I have now. Like I’m doing things that matter to a lot of people, that matter to me. Best feeling ever.

I’ve never been told I couldn’t do something. I think this is all due to the fact that I would prove that person wrong in a relatively short amount of time, but I’m definitely doing things I didn’t imagine I’d be doing.

I also feel like the relationships that are most important to me are getting so much better. (well most of them) but I’m so proud of my brother these days. I’ve been supportive to the people that mean a lot to me. I’ve found people that I don’t want out of my life and I’m doing my best to keep them here. Other relationship(s) I feel are receding but it’ll all work out, right? Well, let’s hope.

My mom has been awesome lately. We’re currently making plans for fall and going and visiting a couple of colleges. It’s a good thing I always made my parents proud because none of this would be happening otherwise.

It’s a good life. It’s my life. And it’s fabulous!

<3 Kara

Can’t Quit!

I’ve been thinking. hard. And its like one of those thinking moods where you really don’t realize what is going on around you, and then you become all paranoid about stuff because you weren’t paying attention. yeah, it’s weird.

Any way, I started school (duh, all i talk about) and my job is seasonal and I’m supposed to be ending around the beginning of October. It’s super hard to balance everything I have at school not to even mention work. Tonight, I sold over a thousand dollars and it’s not even labor day weekend yet. crazy, i know!

So I’ve seriously been considering ending my job earlier. And for most people it’s like yeah no big deal. But for me it’s a huge deal! It’s all I think about. During the middle of the season I wanted to quit because I was so unhappy and stressed and nothing was going right, but things sorta turned around and I really like it out there, overall, I’ve always loved working at the lake!

But it’s senior year, I have college applications, scholarships, school work, extra curricular stuff (that im in charge of =] ). I really want to just focus on all of that but my boss is one of the people I just can’t let down. You know those people who you’d do anything for. He’s always been super patient with everybody, even when I was new and hadn’t a clue what I was doing. He is very flexible with my schedule and when we were texting last night and I was asking about our end date and perhaps ending early he was like “yeah, whatever makes this burden easier to bare”. It makes me feel so guilty! I don’t know what to do! oh, it’s so hard to decide. My problem is I’m so dedicated to everything I do, and I think I do it all well.

AHH I don’t know what to do!

Kara Mason: Senior Year.

Senior year. It’s here.

It’s too soon to tell but I think (hope) its just going to go SO fast. I have five classes at the high school and two at Pueblo Community College. I know I’m going to love my AP Language class. It’s pretty much rhetoric and I love that!

My schedule is so weird though. I don’t know how that’s going to go. I go in at 730 have Botany followed by AP Lang and then Weights. I get 4th, 5th, 6th hour off for PCC classes and then back to the high school for Adv. Speech and newspaper (which happen to be the same hour). But having those three hours off in the middle of the day is sorta nice! Like from 11-3 im free so I can shop… or go eat lunch… or take a nap!

I was talking to my friend Breanna at lunch today and I decided that I don’t really like being a senior because all throughout high school I always fit in better with people who were older than me and now that I’m the oldest its like a lot of the people I identified with are gone. Just one more year, its what I keep telling myself.

I’m excited to rock out debate again and FBLA. Those always get me excited! But a couple of girls I know want to start a Young Republicans club at our school and I told them I’d be totally down for helping but now I’m sort of wondering if that is what I really want because even though I relate to a lot of republican ideals… I’m pretty open to other ideas and more liberal thinking. So, I don’t know what I’ll do with that yet.

Some of my senior pics are finally up on facebook! Check out Looking Glass Photography. I had a little bit of a meltdown that day but I think my pictures are going to come out good!

More to come!

-Kara

Bring It, Baby!

So.

You know what’s crazy? I’m a senior in high school. It sorta just finally just hit me. It’s always been that I hung out with the upperclassmen but now I’m the oldest. I’m not sure why, but the whole idea just seems so foreign to me, like I never anticipated being a senior myself.

I’m literally sitting here blogging in the middle of the night thinking it is too crazy that time is flying by so quickly.

And I have to say, I am so glad that it is for now. I don’t think I was ever meant for high school, and it just needs to be over with already. I have had some really good times the last four years but honestly…. most of it was not for me.

I really do think that the only thing high school was good for, in my case, was for me just to grow more comfortable with who I am. Cliché, right? haha. But seriously, the more I looked at the people around me the more I realized I love who I am. I don’t ever want to fit in if it is with those people. The few friends I have are the absolute best.

Now, I say what I want, I wear what I want, I think what I want. Thank God for that realization!

I just have this whole new feeling of change, and I’m so excited about it. 

The Passion of Anything.

“Nothing great in the world has ever been accomplished without passion”

- Georg Wilheim Friedrich

My topic for today? you guessed it, passion. Although, today I think that I’ve widened my view on what passion is and what it can do.

Earlier I got a camping drop from some people who were preaching to the prisoners. On their camping permit they had written bible verses and at first I thought they were sorta crazy, but after talking with some people I work with I have decided that these people weren’t crazy. They had a whole lot of passion. And here’s the thing, I’ve always seen passion as something you care about. I’ve never really considered religion a passion…. until I started thinking about it today. Passion is something that drives you forward, right? For me it’s success. What I live for is to be even better the next day. But really, passion can be anything. To say you’re not passionate about something is a lie.

I guess the reason why I’ve never really considered religion or God a passion is because I’m more for relationship… I don’t buy into the church scene and the weekly youthgroup gatherings. BUT if that’s what gets you out of bed and that’s the reason why you live your life, then so be it. Sing to God as loud as you want to.

I do think that this Friedrich quotation is off though. I think it should read “without GREAT passion” because everybody is living for something, but without great passion you won’t accomplish anything. These campers had a lot of passion for God, obviously. They wouldn’t be preaching to federal criminals without it.

Upon the visit of these campers a coworker and I started talking about religion and he asked me why I wear my Gandhi necklace…

I said I didn’t really have a reason except that I thought he was a cool guy. I mean I enjoy quoting him as much as possible. His outlook on life is amazing, no matter what religion you are. I’ve read parts of his autobiography and I don’t think you have to be Hindu to achieve the same kind of views he had. Just reading about him made me realize how diverse things have always been, and that it’s such a good thing.

Any way, I guess how I’m trying to relate the 2 stories together is that it’s always made me mad that people who claim to be close to God and avid church goers aren’t very tolerant of opposing views or other religions, but today maybe I figured out that sometimes it’s not that, it’s just that they are so passionate about their religion that they get a little caught up in it. I’m not saying that it’s a bad thing at all. After all, that’s why you wake up every day.

Our GREAT passion stems from different things. If we were all stimulated by the same things we wouldn’t have made as big of scientific discoveries as we have and we wouldn’t be the same civilization we are.

My Party

I got back from “vacation” last night. I thought I was going to have more time to blog throughout my trip but I was pretty busy the entire time out. My trip pretty much broke down into three main parts: Camp. Wichita. Denver.

Camp:

I went to camp for speech at Kansas State University in Manhattan, KS . It was amazing. I met some new amazing people and got to work with some people that have taught me so much already. I thought the great thing about camp was that it totally fired up my passion for speech again. I’m such a nerd, but I really love it. In the short time I was there I really do feel like I had a mini family because everybody was so supportive of each other the whole time. I never felt like I asked a bad question or did something horribly wrong. Their team seemed close which caused the whole group to be really close too. I hope that my team takes that whole feeling back and this season we are stronger because of that.

We also learned new warm ups which ive found myself singing randomly. haha. Only a speech nerd would relate a real situation to a warm up.

                 My team!

 

Wichita:

So we took off from Manhattan and drove 2 and a half hours to Wichita. We only got a little lost but we stayed on the purple line (GPS) and made it all in one piece. It was funny, we were in the middle of Kansas, like nothing on either side of the road but corn and we come across this hard core techno station. Kam and I were both like “what the heck?” then proceeded to jam. haha. We stayed with some really good friends of mine that used to live across the street from me but work took them to KS. We shopped and ate good food, just chilled and played legos with the kids. It was nice to just chill for a bit.

The original plan was to leave from Wichita Tuesday morning and get to Denver that night but we decided that we’d split it up into two days and drove from Wichita to Garden City Monday night and stayed there. I don’t recommend it. The whole city smelt horrible and the kids at ihop were snobby. haha. However, the Holiday Inn did have free cookies….

Denver:

We got back home around 11 o’clock which gave us a little bit of time to rest before Denver. What were we doing in Denver, might you ask? Well, we saw Kings of Leon at the Comfort Dental Amphitheatre AKA Fiddlers Green. The concert was AMAZING. If you ever get the change to see KOL live, do it. They’re so good live. The weather decided to not cooperate and rain the whole time so we were both drenched the whole night but it was worth it. The Features opened for KOL and they were pretty legit. We got a pic with the drummer. haha.

That is pretty much my trip in a nut shell. I’m wicked tired but decided to come to work today because I reallllllllly need the hours. haha. I’m sure I’ll be telling random ks stories for a while though.