Can’t Quit!

I’ve been thinking. hard. And its like one of those thinking moods where you really don’t realize what is going on around you, and then you become all paranoid about stuff because you weren’t paying attention. yeah, it’s weird.

Any way, I started school (duh, all i talk about) and my job is seasonal and I’m supposed to be ending around the beginning of October. It’s super hard to balance everything I have at school not to even mention work. Tonight, I sold over a thousand dollars and it’s not even labor day weekend yet. crazy, i know!

So I’ve seriously been considering ending my job earlier. And for most people it’s like yeah no big deal. But for me it’s a huge deal! It’s all I think about. During the middle of the season I wanted to quit because I was so unhappy and stressed and nothing was going right, but things sorta turned around and I really like it out there, overall, I’ve always loved working at the lake!

But it’s senior year, I have college applications, scholarships, school work, extra curricular stuff (that im in charge of =] ). I really want to just focus on all of that but my boss is one of the people I just can’t let down. You know those people who you’d do anything for. He’s always been super patient with everybody, even when I was new and hadn’t a clue what I was doing. He is very flexible with my schedule and when we were texting last night and I was asking about our end date and perhaps ending early he was like “yeah, whatever makes this burden easier to bare”. It makes me feel so guilty! I don’t know what to do! oh, it’s so hard to decide. My problem is I’m so dedicated to everything I do, and I think I do it all well.

AHH I don’t know what to do!