Every Time I Hear That Song

I LOVE LOVE LOVE Outasight! This is from his newest album and it’s all pretty amazing, but when I wake up to this song it makes my entire day.

The lyrics, the beat, the laidback style. Each album has been a little bit different, but I like when artists do that.

This particular song (Never say Never) has pretty much been my mood lately, which is why I decided to share it.

I can’t really put my finger on it, but I’ve been in such a good mood lately. Everything is falling into place it seems like, and in all the right ways. Things that I’ve wanted for a long time are happening.

The only thing I could ask for is not being in high school? haha Don’t get me wrong, I’ll probably change my mind later but for now my number one goal for my few college classes im taking is that nobody find out that I’m in high school. LOL. Oh and I’ve put passing the classes on my goal list too, but that doesn’t seem as nearly as important at the moment.

Otherwise, things are good, feelin’ independent, feelin’ unusually chilled, and doing my own thing no matter what’s being said!

Tell me you love this as much as I do!

 

-- Kara <3

The Pieces Are Fitting Together Nicely

It' is 11 o’clock and I should be reading… or maybe sleeping?

But I don’t think I can.

These past two weeks I’ve been hatin’ on senior year and today, it all changed. Why? I am not sure, but I’m very, very excited about things. I’ve worked for a long time to get to the places I am, and maybe to a lot of people it’s not anywhere but I’m proud of myself. I’m in positions where I’m in charge, where I have a lot on my shoulders. Later on, I will complain about the stress but to me, it is all worth it.

During the summer, after my night shifts at the lake I would go to Liberty Point and I could see the lights from the campground and I knew that somebody in that campground was happy because of me. Now, that sounds so egotistical, right? but I’m serious. That’s sort of the feeling I have now. Like I’m doing things that matter to a lot of people, that matter to me. Best feeling ever.

I’ve never been told I couldn’t do something. I think this is all due to the fact that I would prove that person wrong in a relatively short amount of time, but I’m definitely doing things I didn’t imagine I’d be doing.

I also feel like the relationships that are most important to me are getting so much better. (well most of them) but I’m so proud of my brother these days. I’ve been supportive to the people that mean a lot to me. I’ve found people that I don’t want out of my life and I’m doing my best to keep them here. Other relationship(s) I feel are receding but it’ll all work out, right? Well, let’s hope.

My mom has been awesome lately. We’re currently making plans for fall and going and visiting a couple of colleges. It’s a good thing I always made my parents proud because none of this would be happening otherwise.

It’s a good life. It’s my life. And it’s fabulous!

<3 Kara

Can’t Quit!

I’ve been thinking. hard. And its like one of those thinking moods where you really don’t realize what is going on around you, and then you become all paranoid about stuff because you weren’t paying attention. yeah, it’s weird.

Any way, I started school (duh, all i talk about) and my job is seasonal and I’m supposed to be ending around the beginning of October. It’s super hard to balance everything I have at school not to even mention work. Tonight, I sold over a thousand dollars and it’s not even labor day weekend yet. crazy, i know!

So I’ve seriously been considering ending my job earlier. And for most people it’s like yeah no big deal. But for me it’s a huge deal! It’s all I think about. During the middle of the season I wanted to quit because I was so unhappy and stressed and nothing was going right, but things sorta turned around and I really like it out there, overall, I’ve always loved working at the lake!

But it’s senior year, I have college applications, scholarships, school work, extra curricular stuff (that im in charge of =] ). I really want to just focus on all of that but my boss is one of the people I just can’t let down. You know those people who you’d do anything for. He’s always been super patient with everybody, even when I was new and hadn’t a clue what I was doing. He is very flexible with my schedule and when we were texting last night and I was asking about our end date and perhaps ending early he was like “yeah, whatever makes this burden easier to bare”. It makes me feel so guilty! I don’t know what to do! oh, it’s so hard to decide. My problem is I’m so dedicated to everything I do, and I think I do it all well.

AHH I don’t know what to do!

Kara Mason: Senior Year.

Senior year. It’s here.

It’s too soon to tell but I think (hope) its just going to go SO fast. I have five classes at the high school and two at Pueblo Community College. I know I’m going to love my AP Language class. It’s pretty much rhetoric and I love that!

My schedule is so weird though. I don’t know how that’s going to go. I go in at 730 have Botany followed by AP Lang and then Weights. I get 4th, 5th, 6th hour off for PCC classes and then back to the high school for Adv. Speech and newspaper (which happen to be the same hour). But having those three hours off in the middle of the day is sorta nice! Like from 11-3 im free so I can shop… or go eat lunch… or take a nap!

I was talking to my friend Breanna at lunch today and I decided that I don’t really like being a senior because all throughout high school I always fit in better with people who were older than me and now that I’m the oldest its like a lot of the people I identified with are gone. Just one more year, its what I keep telling myself.

I’m excited to rock out debate again and FBLA. Those always get me excited! But a couple of girls I know want to start a Young Republicans club at our school and I told them I’d be totally down for helping but now I’m sort of wondering if that is what I really want because even though I relate to a lot of republican ideals… I’m pretty open to other ideas and more liberal thinking. So, I don’t know what I’ll do with that yet.

Some of my senior pics are finally up on facebook! Check out Looking Glass Photography. I had a little bit of a meltdown that day but I think my pictures are going to come out good!

More to come!

-Kara

Bring It, Baby!

So.

You know what’s crazy? I’m a senior in high school. It sorta just finally just hit me. It’s always been that I hung out with the upperclassmen but now I’m the oldest. I’m not sure why, but the whole idea just seems so foreign to me, like I never anticipated being a senior myself.

I’m literally sitting here blogging in the middle of the night thinking it is too crazy that time is flying by so quickly.

And I have to say, I am so glad that it is for now. I don’t think I was ever meant for high school, and it just needs to be over with already. I have had some really good times the last four years but honestly…. most of it was not for me.

I really do think that the only thing high school was good for, in my case, was for me just to grow more comfortable with who I am. Cliché, right? haha. But seriously, the more I looked at the people around me the more I realized I love who I am. I don’t ever want to fit in if it is with those people. The few friends I have are the absolute best.

Now, I say what I want, I wear what I want, I think what I want. Thank God for that realization!

I just have this whole new feeling of change, and I’m so excited about it.